wah piang...september coming soon yall....wow....i cant believe time is passing by so quickly...

updates:

well nothing much has changed....been very busy with exams...now its finally over!!! wohooo!!! 2months of holidays!!! wow!! at last i can have abit of rest...hmm...but i think im gonna fail one of the papers so maybe im gonna have to retake that paper soon...

im quite nervous about tmrw....early in the morning i have to go ubi cdc to take my rtt...pls god let me pass!!??!! then after taking my rtt i have to take prac 5 for class 2b...aiyo...very nervous...dnt want to fail....waste time and money...oh well...hope all goes well tmrw....its gonna be nerve wrecking.

also, hoping to go back to work...im broke and i really miss my banquet colleagues....hope to c u guys soon yar...

i guess thats it...till my next post...tc friends...

i feel different....very different...i dont know what it is....but i feel dead. i dont know what being dead feels like but im sure how i feel right now is pretty close to it...

past few days have been shit....yup i do seem ok in my previous post but i left alot of details out...nobody likes the feeling of loving but seeing the other happy with someone else...having given your whole life to her to only find out that ur not even the least important...it hurts the shit out of me...

years and years of love to crumble into a splatter of dust...oh yeah life cannot get any better...im having the time of my life...it is so good that i cant do anything properly....its so good that sometimes i wish im dead....ive learnt a valuable lesson through all this, LOVE SUCK!

nah just kidding, ive learnt that it takes two hands to clap and two hearts to love. yeah it sucks being given false or pretentious love....but u know...i guess its just the story of my life...

went to esplanade on national day to watch the fireworks....apart from the fireworks itself, i gazed at all the sweet couples holdin hands, the guy pointing to the sparkle in the sky. its as though he was pointing at the sparkle of true love he has for his girlfriend. thts sweet and all but imagine me.....heartbroken....pissed off.....dumped.....watching all the sweet couples.....at that point of time....I WISHED I HAD A GUN TO SHOOT MYSELF IN THE EYE...

oh well....story goes on rite?? its not forgetting the past...but i guess its about looking back and trying not to hate it but learn something from it...

chiaoz....

its been two months since i updated....well thts better than 1 year rite...

the topic for today is memories....but before that...a little update from my life's occurences....

well i turned 18....and stupidly enrolled for bike liscence....i suck at riding bikes...cant get it dont know why....anyways my 18th birthday was a blast....not as i hoped for...but it was nice....brothers were there, yi qin, vivien, lina, and my beloved sister bunny(got drunk and puked)....it was real fun.

we headed down to pasir ris park to drink...pls, wat i just told u is top secret...pls dont tell my mother....

ive been slacking alot in school lately, just finished wrapping up projects last week....tonnes of weight off my shoulders. now all i have to worry about is my exams at the end of the month....oh well, guess being a student is a never ending career.

ok now back to topic...."memories"...

have u guys ever been woken up by a dream that was in fact reality from your past? well i was...im not going to say wat sweet memory i dreamt of but it kind of made me sad...

i miss secondary school, all my buddies...and sistas....those were the days when teachers actually care...carrying heavy books on the first day of school, putting them under the desk so that for the rest of the period before exams, u dont have to bring anymore books to school....ah those were the fun days. now everything is about being independent, earning your own money, buying your own stuff, being responsible for your own life....i dont know if im ready for that yet....but i guess life is simply complicated....u will never get what u want, but life somehow gives you wat you need...

wow!!! wow!!! wow!!! hellllloooo yall.....i dont know why but im so hyped up rite now.....just watched transformers 2 with ridwan....it was da bomb!!! power i tell you...and megan fox......hhooooooooooweeeeee!!! the movie was well worth my last 6 bucks....the special effects, the storyline, totally owns!!!!

okok....so im abit too excited....but who the fuck cares...the movie was fuckin awesome....ive been waiting for over a year for this movie and it was worth the wait.....superb!!!

so i met ridwan at downtown east, then watched the movie.....met Don afterwards....played poker and now here i am...at home....i guess thats about it.....

one bad thing about law and management is that there is nothing good about it!!! hahaha....
i don't wtf im thinkin rite now...i cnt think straight...just finished doin 3/4 of my work for this week and i am bum freakinly tired....

so many projects to do.... so little time...so many exams and tests comin up....si little time to study...
oh well...at least im not dead rite?? im beginning to question myself whether being dead rite now is better than school?? i guess i'll never kknow until im actually dead...

i ended up going to school for a 1 hour class.....thats it!!! fuckin waste of time...went to school at 9 am, met my project mates....did a little facebooking and then just slacked all the way till french lesson at 2....went to eat at macdonalds with wen da and after that we found out that our french teacher was quarantined for possible H1N1 case....OMG!!!

waste my time wait until 2 pm....i guess this virus outbreak is really serious huh....quite a number of people with it in Singapore....at first i thought that it wasnt so serious but now...im terrified of cathchin it myself...

anyways me, wen da and rui hao decided to go catch a movie at tampines mall....and so we did...otw there, bumped into haz and her friend....she ask me to blanja her movie but in the end she decided not to follow us....haiyo!!! fickle minded!!! anyways, we watched pelham 123....it was okok lah...but very entertaining....

now im tired and sleepy....so before i go to bed...just wanna say to u sorry ass loosers who are reading my blog....hehe... thank u and gd night....

whats happenin yall...haha

i dono where to begin in this update...
so much has been goin on it makes my head spin thinkin about all the stuff i wanna put down on this post.

well let me start with anugerah, the most fucked up decision of my life...i joined, made it through the first round, fell out on the second...well i learned alot from that experience. i learned that the stage is bigger once ur on it and u will shake without having control over ur body. haha, one of the most scariest experiences of my life, but it was the most enriching one.

i just wanna say thnks to kak su, my parents, joshua, nabilah, brother irfan and kak yati for givin me their support.

MOVING ON...

my exams just ended, and this time, i really did study. hopefully i will do better than the previous time. school has been gr8...my new classmates have been the most friendliest of people...school is a breeze if ur in a good class. now almost everywhere i go, u would find me with Wen Da or better known as hakim... haha. my new best friend...

MOVING ON...

my dad told me he was going to have an operation done to his shoulder becoz of a tear in his muscle. damn.... doctors said recovery period would be about 9 months....thts fucked up....without him workin, hows my family goin to survive...

ive been thinkin about getting a night job, anybody who knows of a night job pls tag or call me....

oh well, i guess this is life and we got to face it...

its april of 2009!!! holy shit!!! hahaha....i guess im still in 2008 kinda mood...alot has happened since the year began....alot has changed in my life...mostly for the worst...but what is a guy to do other than to face these challenges as they come.....

day by day.... stress has been pilling up....more to my financial situation....ive lost a friend i trusted for years and years....but as they say....friends come and go but family will always be there....im begining to believe that now....

work has been like fuck as usual, being treated differently than the rest, but thats normal for me i guess...being pushed around, being cursed at.....all in a day's work....im just not cool enough i guess....but all i can do is to just take a deep breath and remember why im working....to get the money and help my parents out, to pay my school fees, to pay for my books, to pay my handphone bill, to pay for my daily food and transport expenses, to give my mom some money....and to help my brother out whenever i can....

sometimes i wonder at such a young age, why should i be carriying this weight on my shoulder...but i will always realize that if i cant support myself, i wont be able to help my parents.

people are fast to say that im poor or whenever im the only one at work whose not having lunch, they will say..."why? no money ah?" ....yeah its shameful, its embarrasing, but hey, im not shameful of being poor, im shameful of working with people who think that they are everything in this world.....try supporting urself for 3 years and u'll know my situation.

im not saying that i have a harder life than others but im just saying, financially, no one can tell me that their life is harder than mine....