fuck! fuck! fuck!! those were the words i said when my thumb bent 90 degrees....bush!! next time dont hit the ball so hard lah hor...aniways few days back got soccer training...boring bla3...then yesterday haziqah birthday...fun3!! all wet but fun...burnt my finger playing with matches but still fun, before haziqah's birthday went to macdonalds and ate ice-cream with the guys hairi, syafiq and the botak head ismail...haha fun ah....like single bujangs like dat...hmm....then went for haziqah birthday...azza hyper sial!! ko makan aper ah??haha but fun ah...everyone was abit giler ah....abit oni....then wanted to take my girl home after her art thing...but she don want...so went to hairi house...play game..play dress up...i dressed up as terrorist!!! faqih and ismail were soldiers wat..ncc boys!! wakakaka! then they all went for oc...so i went home ah....wat else to do?? walked home from hairi house about 3 km ah....walked along my old pri school...wow so many memories.....oh man missed my pri skool days...no problems, so free...noting on my mind...then yesterday nite kena maen by my girl...thnk u very much ah eh!! however i didnt find it funny.....

nowadays ah...i feel so crappy.....since wat she said...everything like shit....oh man...i dont feel happie anymore....how can i look at her without thinkin about wat she said....every guy will feel the same way....fuck man...cant u juz leave her alone with me!! dont desturb anymore lah!! fuck off cibai!! get ur own life!! find ur own girl!! and stop messing with mine!! kanasai! so many problems ah!! nabe! now i feel like i dont exist anymore to her...like i am not important....i feel excluded...oh well nanti ur friends say u spend tooooooooooo much time with me rite?? i guess so...i mean...i walk to skool with her every day for 5 minutes.!! in class we hardly talk so 5 minutes a day is a loooong time!!!! i go home alone......aku ajak dier kelua dier malas...so how can u say that later on..ur friends will say u spend too much time with me?? wat logic is dat?? use ur brain ah use ur brain!!! think before u say.....if u dont want to spend time with me juz say so!!! i will leave u alone!! and yar!!! wat u said is rite!! ur not wrong!! ur never wrong lah dear!! ur never wrong!! i am wrong!! i always wrong!!! well have fun with ur friends!! no need to think about me....i am used to being alone....

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well juz got back from school...notin to do...all alone....so tired...so sad ah in a way....used to sleep late at nite tokin to her...chat with her untill my fingers crack...walk with her so happily and jokin around...but now, i sense a change...the way she looks at me, its different...she is like bored to look at me...does that makes sense?? i dono lah maybe its juz me missing her so much...never realy got a chance to tok to her...never realy had the chance to spend time with her...always so bz doin dis doin dat....i dono wth is wrong with me...expecting too much...must learn to relax more and be alone and independant...it aint easy being without her but i guess i juz have to try...for so long, the thought of us studyin together has been crawling all over my mind, but when i ask her if she is free the answer is always no so i am kinda embarrased to ask...from experience lah...later malu like hell...now i dono wat to say to her, cause i feel like she doesnt wanna tok to me...does that makes sense also?? ahhh!!! so stressed...u know evrytime i feel so guilty coz she is stuck with me...look at me and then u look at her....i dont deserve this...i dont deserve her...realy!!! she deserves someone who is all rounded better than this looser who is writing this stupid post...wth??so sori for sayin this but realy times have changed...i dono wat to think?? issit juz me or is she realy bored of me??? i mean stalled smses, stalled chats, stalled conversations...well maybe she is juz too bz for me....i dono?? i guess i wont ever know...

hallo there ppl....!!???!>>>!?? haha so bored sia at home...never go to school today...a mixture of factors lah...firstly i am was lazy to go, econdly, slight fever, thirdly, my rite knee has swelled up, and lastly, i have multiple cuts on my legs...long story...okok so i woke up at 8.30...hairi woke me up...then i continued sleepin rite untill 12...oh man!! the best sleep i have had in weeks...then did my history hmwk...sho tired!! and then slept again untill 2 pm...woke up..took a bath and then watched tv with my mom....actually the tv watched my mom...everytime she watch tv she will sleep one...i am so alone...should have gone to school man...so bored at home...bever thought i would say this but i miss school...oh well gtg lor..wanna sleep..tata

wooooooooo! so fun sia today!!!went to changi for angah's birthday party!!! walao so far siak but then ride taxi lah...haha so much fun...well me, azri, hairi and kamarul went to cp to buy faqih present...walk2 for 1 and a half hours and bought him some stuff ah....t-shirt oni...wakakakaka! okok then waited for tht stupid botak head to come so late...then went to yishun to meet firah, badron and mira...then we went to faqih's house help carry stuff...then once at changi.....we started playing football...waduh!! fun sia...but then started to rain....damn it!!! we went to the beach and chilled, the sky was grey and blue shimmering in the glaze of the sun, the wind blew strongly against my face, my feet buried in the sand, it reminded me of my girl....okok jiwang oleady...then play soccer on the beach...so fun but then got alot of cuts and bruises...the socer like rugby sia...then ate barbeque!!!! woooooooooo!power ah!!! faqih parents so hospitable!! they rock man!!
then at arnd 7++ went back home...in the bus, so quiet...everyone so sleepy...then went to admiralty to makan kfc...waduh so sedap...so long never eat kfc....burp..wakakaka! then went home alone...walk home about 1 km......so scary...try walkin under dark bloks at 10 pm....very scary...not becoz of hantu!!! but becoz af the gangs ...anihow,got back home safely...haha ok lah gd nite yall....

today was a normal day i guess...haha juz jokin!!! we had that public speaking thing in class and got back our report books...one fail siak!!! citot! nvr mind, swear i shall work harder ah!! okok aniwaes the speakers today were power!!! i mean they were realy good man!!! full of action they conveyed their speeches...i was scared cause miss hesley were picking the nemaes randomly...lucky no need to make my speech...wakakakaka.....ok aniwaes...did not eat during recess..like lazy to eat ah...but after skool ah...wow! so hungry, cannot tahan untill go home...must eat on the spot!! go buy rice and ate untill there was notin left...then hairi said somethin about football...then i rwalised!! omg!! i have not gone for training for a long time!! shit!!! mr ho warning me oleady must go...if not no attendence and no cca point!! wasted rite??so i thought haiyah juz go there and run abit then go home lah...thats wat i did...so fun man!! changed boots with sap....f-50 man!!! left foot grey and rite one was white..stylo ah!! hehe....scored once but was so tired...then kena marah by my girl ah...but dear i didnt exert lah...juz kicked a few balls...then went home with lloyd and khairul...wah fun siak....lloyd saw girl ah then turn 360 degress to look at her...i was concentrating on my ice kacang lah...haha but today was fun .....so sori dear for not listening to your advice k??? veri the sori...it wont happen twice....love u...

boy oh boy...wat a day i juz had.....well as usual, slept at 1 am or was it 2 am..??? cannot remember ah...well somebody cried and made me sleepless!!! omg she cried, it wasnt meant for u to cry dear!!! it was meant to make u happy...so so sori for makin u cry!!???@@##$$%%^&*(( so so sori dear...haha...feel so stupid...well my mom has been stressed out over the pas few days and bad mood ah....we are having intentions of moving house and my mom is so stressed out!! kesian sey, i pitty her so much....aniweas got notin to do and i juz got back from skool...wkakakakaka!today went home all alone again!!! but lucky no one to bother me, now i phobia oleady...ya lor...so suey ah!! my dudes got oc and cca's and my girl got art club which she 'loves' very much.....hehehehe....anyhow...got notin to do and wanted to save money for ehem, walked home all the way from skool?!>>?:>:?> oh man! so damn far..!!! especially if u have legs like mine...walked for 20 minutes then reach home, once at home, merebah ke atas katel! with my bags still enveloping me....felt so tired...so bored...no one to tok to...no one to kacau or sms...i dont want to desturb ppl...and emm...juz wanna say thnks to angah for inviting me to ur b'day party...thnks man...alemak nak kene belikan present ah....aku kasi kau ice cream potong bleh? boleh ah...boleh blah! jgn harap ape2 dari aku...haha juz playin...thought about askin my dear to come with me to faqih b'day party so i wont be alone.....but then think and think and think ah...should i bring her?? damn! i want to but i feel bersalah u know...like she has better things to do other than follow me lar hor...well guess will be goin with ...emm...with...hmm...who ah?? i oso dono lah, hairi nak menggatal, badron later with mira...then i alone ah?? haiyah alone pon alone lah...ader mp3 yang dah sod ni....dah bersyukur...so sien man...berdikari sungguh menyedih kan..keseorangan..haha dah start lah ni jiwang aku...

wow ca2 seems so far away...but if u think about it, its juz around the corner.....i wanna study hard dis time around and swear i will!!! i will work harder!!! and will help my dear out!!! but then ah...so many things to do!!! speech! omg! speech! tommorow! speech! damn it! mati liao but must chill yall! ok lah i shall stop here...want to practice my speech untill i memorise like al-fateha...ok lah tata bye and 8 kisses dear....

my oh my....sho tired!!!!!!!! went to skool with my best friend, my future wife, my one and only love, my everythin, my world....okok stop here ah...aniwaes...today was quite ok ah...got back history paper and i failed...omg!!! i passed everythin but history...damn it! i think theres only like 4 passes in our class....but i expected it lah...i knew it...although i was realy confident about combined humans, it was a smaking to my ass....failed so terok!! but never realy affected me ah...cause so used to failing, especially last year...but bersyukur to my other subjects....i did well this common test...i mean, first time gettin an a for maths in secondary skool....but my history spoils it all...but i knew that i have to work harder next time around and never repeat my mistakes.....i knew i shouldn't feel sori for myself but instead, look at the positives.....its not how u fail, but wat u can learn from ur failure...i look at my paper and i promised myself that i will work harder! very much harder!!! so in class, everybodywas moody and sad...i saw my girl on the other side of the class and went to her to see how she did, i was praying in my heart that she passed.....i guess she didn't too....as soon as i asked her about her results, she juz stood up from her chair and walked away from me...i was like....ok...i guess she is not in the mood to talk...felt so stupid sia....like i dont exist like dat...like she didn't care, like she did not wanna tok to me...so i then chased after her...but then my knee suddenly froze sia and i was like oh man! not again...this cannot be happenin now...so i decided to go to the toilet and rest for a while..walan this knee realy bad man! i knew she was in a bad mood ah, so decided not to tok to her for a while...untill she cooled down....didnt even get a chance to eat man durin recess...but then after skool, ah kau! lantak ah...i went to the nasi stall and oddered
food like i was rich...mak cik nasi beef steak lebeh nasi and lebeh steak eh...and kasi saye tu kebab...i juz couldnt resist man!! so damn hungry!!! ate like babi like that...then drank one packet of ice lemon tea and two packets of milo...oh man..so full, went home and headed strait to the jamban and released tension...u know wat i mean lah....like volcano like tht....went outta my ass like rocket...like atom bom!!! haha but did have fun with azri, went to causeway point and searched for his earpiece thingy for mp3...search the whole cp...but fun ah...tok and tok about football!! my bro is the best man!! haha....aniwaes, wanna do my maths lah..tata and love u dear..

oh man....slept at dono wat time..three days never sleep..very tired...then yesterday nite slept at 1 am....oh man....so damn tired...went to skool with my darling....couldnt walk straight...my eyes were pushing out of the eye sockets...its that bad...very painful...well got back my test papers for a maths and english...alhamdullilah i passed them all...insyallah can pass the rest of my subjects...oh well hopefully...

after skool went to macdonalds and ate with the gang...syafiq house damn near sia and the two beroks azri and hairi had oc rehearsals and so, after eating, went back home all alone...not that i mind ah...but now abit scared sia to walk alone....talked with my girl for a while, thought about askin her to walk with me but see her enjoy with her friends, hati berat ah...i cannot be so sellfish...she has a life too...i realised dat a few days ago...

was waiting for the bus when lloyd and khairul accompanied me in the bus...thank god for them...if not it would have been so boring going home alone....aniways, i am insane ah....havent chat with her in a while...well she has been bz and not tokin to her is hell man for me...relax boy relax boy...i keep tellin myself.....haha...aniways, wanna sign off here...gd luck with ur lives and love u dear..

yo yo...oh man....last day of the freakin holidays....omg....i am so moody, its over, its all over!!! the late nights....the long hours chattin, the long hours on the phone with my dear...its all over!!! skool is back!!!! damn it! the education system sucks man in singapore...too stressful sia!! and dis stupid skool! ri of the north konon! my ass lah!! ciao ci bai! so stressful! especially maths portfolio!! eh teachers! u think one week is alot of time ah? homework here homework there......one teacher say practice practice practice! another so kanchong wanna decorate the class...wtf? its gonna be stressful once skool start again...damn it...i wanna sleep at home untill 2 pm like now...its gonna be over soon, left onli a few more hours untill the gates of hell open for us to step inside...and my hair!! my tail!!! no!!!!! hopefully the teacher cock eye....aniwaes, i guess the opening of skool will give me the oppotunity to see her face everyday...thts not bad...not bad at all....well gonna get back all our results for our common tests....abit scary...history and all tht guaranteed passable...but physics, chem and A maths, i am not so sure.....hopefully, insyallah......aniwaes juz now got madrasah...before goin, i was like so bored coz madrasah is freakin slow!!! damn it! its very slow.....but then, madrasah was quite fun ah, the students are realy gettin comfortable with each other....so much fun, jokin around....tokin halal food...but then quite ok ah...well ok lah..gtg, wanna chat for the last time durin my holidays...tata..

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wow woke up at 12.15 exactly!!! damn it man!!! i woke up and looked at the clock and said shit!!! omg i am late!!! well no chance of going to friday prayers on time....damn it!!!then decided to watch tv and watch cartoons....ayo so boring lah.....ate black pepper beef my mommy cook...hmmm sedap siak....then did my history hmwk...so tired, so many things to write....aniwaes i did my english, malay,history hmwk oleady....now wats left to do in three days is my chemistry hmwk, A maths and maths portfolio!! omg maths portfolio....i havent even touched it yet.....sho tired!!!! ah! damn it!! haha but must perservere.....i hope i can do all my hmwk on time...and thnks hairi for helping me yo! haha.....aniwaes untill now so groggy sey!! cannot tahan...slept at 3.30 am~!!!! omg!! spoke with my dear from 12 am to 3.30 am...waduh notin better to do siak...talking nonsence.....aniwaes thank u dear for keepin me company....nowadays feelin so fed up man....my parents wanna sell the house and downgrade.....no!!!!!!!!! oh well at least can make money hor....thinkin bout movin to yishun...near northpoint....but i love my house so much!!! well i guess everything happens for a reason...haha later become angah's neighbour....wow...not bad ah...so yishun pon yishun lor.....but so lazy to take mrt every mornin to go to school.....those of u taking mrt to school every mornin i salute u !!! i mean, me takin the bus to school oleady so lazy, later must take mrt...walan! like hell sia!!! ok lah this is where i end my speech....bye bye and love u dear olwaes!!

helllloooooo there reader.....omg...so sleepy and tired!!! well today was such a fun day......
went to cp and watched movie with my friends and darling......the show damn slow sia...the ghost oso i dono where?? to tell u the truth, i was laughing and sleepin more than i was scared...my dear was seating beside me and she was like screaming!!! in my ear!!! haha nvr mind ah, music to my ears....aniway, so damn cold......lucky got sayang to make me HOT!!! haha, aniways i tell u guys out there kalau nak tngk movie jgn tengok dorm pasal the story was damn slow....i slept through the last part....okok then send my dear to mrt station and said farewell....the lowest point of my day was seeing her backside walkin away from me...haish...juz now met her now oleady missing her....haish...haha....then i took the bus home...was walkin under void deck when got three ppl quating down and against the wall, one girl and two boys all smokin and tokin loudly...so i juz ignored and walk past them...then one of the boys call me..." eh mat!" and i was like omg this cannot be happenin again....then i juz turn to him and he buat bodoh, as if notin happened...so i juz ignored it and continued ah...then he spoke again.."eh budak!!" then i was like this guy deserves a slap sia, so i walked backwards towards the guy and said to him ..."yer bang?? boleh saye bantu?? sori ah kalau abang nak carik pasal ngan saye, saye takder mood ah, nanti muker abang pecah nanti...then my two of my friends walked by and shoook hands with me, they all came back for playin soccer, then the guy i think kecot oleady and went back to his corner and so i went back home lor...then at arnd 7.30 went to yishun to take a look at three houses...maklomlah, org nak pindah...the houses were yuck! very dirty...who wanna buy!!???!! aniways then went to al-ameen and ate prata cheese!!! wooo!!! ok lah wanna sleep...tata and love u dear!! my singlet my darling, my xbox my hmm....ok lah lazy to write...bye bye...

well now i am so fucked up, dono why i feel this way, i dono, these past few days have been hell for me,i think i am juz gonna stay at home and study till my brains go out, well quite dissapointed coz not goin anywhere: to whom it my concern.....promisses are meant to be broken but honouring ur words is becomin an ancient art...

well had to go to school for class decor and chemistry lesson, miss hesley so kanchong sia, i bom her then she know...alemak...sori2 eeeeee, who wants to bom her sia...aniwaes, hairi had this idea of going to bugis to jalan2 ah, i was like yeah baby! i realy needed to get out of the house, i have been so alone these past few days...dono why lah...okok, so as usual went with hairi and faqih and memet and badron and mira and kamarul....so fun sia, went eating at a place i have forgotten the name, haha sori...hmm then went to bugis street to take a look at stuff...so damn tired sia, so many mats, well we walked around for a few hours and then decided to go to bugis...well, i was so damn tired and missed my darling the whole way, kept thinkin about spendin more time with her this holidays but .....haiyah...don have to say lah...okok so we were walkin and walkin and walkin and then me and memet went to the toilet to relief our sorrows...haha...then he was takin a long time to put on his beltso i went out of the toilet first....i saw the gang quite a distance from the toilet lookin at sunglasses at a shop....so i was goin to them when out of nowhere, this girl tapped my shoulders from behind....i thought she was askin for directions or somethin...but then she asked me...excuse me, can i have ur number?? i was like....is she tokin to me??? she giler or wat??? tak malu nye pompan....but of course i kembang abit ah...i thought she was chinese but then she added...kau dari maner?? and i juz answered i am from woodlands....then i juz stared at her face...she ask me again...ur number?? and she took out her phone...her friends behind were lookin at me intensely...then without thinkin twice i juz said...sori ah i cannot give u...then she asked me...u are attached ah?? i answered...yes i am very happy and i love my girl ah....then i juz said sori again and left to where my friends were....then went around and around bugis...then i decided my legs couldnt take it anymore and left with memet..he blanja me taxi ride..thnks man!!! went home and teros merebah on my bed...so damn tired...smsed my cyg a few hundred times but no reply...alemak so lonely...lonely, i'm mr lonely, i have nobody...haha wat the hell am i saying..okok now wanna chat with my dear...tata yall and thnks alot memet!!! brothers forever!!! love u too dear...

feelin crapy today..firstly, my date was cancelled but hey, its ok ah actualy, i understand fully.....hmm...then i made plans with hairi....went to his house and played the xbox...with his brother !! so fun siak....play from 1 to 5.30 ....but tired siah when going home....well my house is quite near to hairi's ah, walking distance...okok back to wat happened, if u know me, i like to wear sunglasses, u know those vintage big types like s.jibeng lah...very practical wat, cover the whole of ur eyes from the sun...well i was walkin home near a coffee shop when i noticed a group of mats lookin at me....but i juz ignored them and walked by, then they called me..." EH BUDAK STEP HENSEM!!!" i was like wtf?? juz continued walkin when i heard one more shout..."EH CI BAI I AM TOKIN TO U!!!" ....i turned around and there were four of them standin up lookin at me....i was caarryin my beg full of books and papers, so berat sia.....then they stare at me, like want to eat me like that...i say to them...why not happy ah? then one of them replied..."EH LU HENSEM KAPA PAKAI GLASSES TU??? JGN STEP KAT SINI LAH EH!!!"......i was damn mad man...i then replied" lu punya hal kapa gua hensem?? apesal?? lu jeles kapa??....i then put my bag on the ground and act like gangster2 like that...then that same guy walked towards me clinching his fist...then i walk towards him lor and clinched my fist oso, then his friend came to him and dragged him by the arm and told him to stop...and said a few words softly...i couldnt hear...then he juz cursed out aloud and walked away...walan wat kind of gangster is that??? 4 ppl want to fite with one?? alemak...lucky never gadoh...scared sia...my stomach like want to burst like that..first time i kene kacau....lucky me...i was sweating like mad sia.....i juz picked up my bag and walked home, constantly lookin over my shoulders...seram seh...anyway wanna say i love u dear and miss u alot!!

aite went to the barber shop to get a haircut yesterday....since its the holidays, i wanted to do somethin to my hair i never did before which is to cut the sides short and cut a steep v shape at the back....my mom screamed at me when i asked her about it....then as i was walking to the barber shop, i was thinkin to my self, v shape or no v shape, when i sat down on the chair those words just came out, uncle steep v shape at the back ah... the uncle just nodded...ok ok so there is a tail at the back, but not that long wat??? my mom saw my hair and blew out of control!!! i was tryin so hard to contain my laughter!!! haha!!!! so i juz took my towel and went to take a bath, thats when i saw my hair up close....i was like oh my god wat have i done!!! haha!!!! i wasnt thinkin straight i guess, went to madrasah today and the kids were like starring eventhough i had a songkok on....they saw my tail but luckily the ustazahs never say anything...phew....my mom asked me to repair my hair and cut it botak...but then i juz kept quiet and now she accepted it oleady..haha i want to try spike up my hair but then later become punk2....thats not me...oh well i juz wanna have fun this holiday...and try somethin new.....haha well gtg now...happy holidays and take care yall...and to u dear, love u and miss u..fingers crossed for tommorow haha!!!! bye2

it was a hard fought victory for 3/7 as they battled their way to win a very tough 3/8 side...3/7 was stunned by the sheer power of 3/8 as they were clear favourites to win the game beforehand...goals from hairi, linxin,badron and a brace from ihsan ensured the 5-4 victory...

sialah aku takleh tahan sak tadi...sure sure we won but actually ah...full credit to the boys!!! especially lin xin a.k.a KAKA, u rock man!!!! dier lari macam babi kene potong ekor sak...betol nye laju...and the thing is, this guy is not solo, wat i mean is, yeah sure he will dribble and dribble but he always tries to find a team mate so as a team mate of urs, i salute u kaka....well hairi played well in defence while badron was a drogba in our team, he was awesome, juz simply gd, the way he positions himself, woooo power man!!!

well yeah i scored two goals but the thing is, i wanna thank my team mates for standin by each other, we made a few mistakes individualy but no one was mad, it was the kind of game where u hug and shake hands with each other after the game, there was no fightin, everyone had fun and to 3/8 well done guys, u were worthy opponents....

well i was runnin like a mad person when my right knee suddenly jammed and i mean it was numb, omg!!! i was scared to death, i felt my knee and juz carried on lah...the pain was excruciating but wanted to be macho mah...so juz continued...my girl stopped by, isnt she juz the best??? well the thing is that she was sick and her nose was like a waterfall, still she came and watched me...thank u dear...well the whole game was played under the hot sun!!! like hell sak...so fucking hot...haha..well after the game, i was walkin when i heard somethin crackin in my knee, the pain was gone, a miracle it was i tell ya...so happy!!! the boys went back to my house and played the x box...well they played while i was laying on my bed..a terrible headache...under the sun too long i guess...muahahaha sori guys for not playing halo with u guys, the graphics made me wanna puke, not because it was bad but because i was juz damn tired and couldnt think strait...hahaha so long never play soccer and when i finally did, i was gasping for air, so tired!!! omg!! but for my class i would do anythin, aniwae, juz wanna end off by thankin my team mates and our opponents, u gave us a gd fite man haha and 3/7 respect 3/8 haha!!! and to my dearest darlin who is sick rite now, insyallah u will get better realy soon cause i wanna take u out!!! haha well take care ppl and especially u nabilah bte abdul jalil!!! take ur medicine!!!

hey yall wats happenin?? haha okok....well today was normal...we had A MATHS paper...to me ah so damn hard sia...tak leh angkat ah...then the whole day i was stoned lah...tak leh concentrate..

well i juz wanna tell u wats happenin tommorrow...not only tommorrow will be the last paper of the common test...but after skool, there will be a soccer match....3/7 vs 3/8....anybody who wants to watch or play will be welcomed...we juz wanna have fun yall!!! haha ....for me representing 3/7 will be a great honour....the smarts against the bodohs!!! haha juz playin 3/8.....dont get mad...haha well there will be a sports carnival in a short time...this will be a great time for 3/7 to train and get fit...eventhough ppl have tipped us as favourites to get gold in the sports carnival...i wont be so complacent ah...we have a very gd team mainly beacuse of LIN xin a.k.a KAKA...he doesnt run, he flies...so quick sia...i think he eat steroids or somethin..haha juz kiddin...i am lucky to be on the same side as him...well guys and girls do support us in the match...haha tata and gd nite yall..

dianugerahkan kegembiraan,
kemudian dihampa kesengsaraan,
aku tidak mengerti,
telahku buat salah terhadapmu??

semalam berasmara,
hari ini,
diganti kesedihan semula,
aku dilanda kebingungan,

mengapa kau bersayu,
aku berjalan keseorangan,
berat hati meninggalkanmu,
tetapi itulah yang engkau mahu,

tidak mahu ku mengganggu,
pendirian diri,
ada di tanganmu sendiri,
tidak bisa ku menukarnya,

ku hanya dapat membuka pintu,
engkau yg harus mengambil langkah,
jgn malu membuat yang benar,
jangan berani membuat yang salah,

berputar-putar kepala memusing,
mencari tempat kesalahan,
mungkin aku,
mungkin tidak,

tolonglah permaisuriku,
jangan membuatku begini,
cinta memerlukan dua tangan bertepuk,
jangan sampai hanya tanganku sahaja,

aku cintakanmu,
tidak mahu memarahimu,
tetapi demi percintaanku kepadamu,
terpaksa ku membuat sesuatu,

hanya tuhan sahaja dapat tahu,
ketibaan kau disisiku,
betapa berwarna-warninya duniaku,
tidak akan kau tahu,

ku hanya mahu membantu,
bukan membunuh,
dengan hati niat yang suci,
aku mencintaimu....

hey...have u ever felt like shit before??? like u never existed???



apakah salahku???
apa telah ku buat???
mengapa ku rasa begini??
ku merana keperitan..

telah ku berusaha,
demi percintaan kita,
telah ku mengerti,
kau lah segalanya,

tetapi kini kusedari,
apa yg dierti,
soal peribadi,
soal percintaan kita,

aku tahu,
tiada keistimewaan bagiku,
tetapi alangkah terperanjatnya,
pabila kau membuat bergitu,

aku marah dan sedih,
tetapi masihku sayangkanmu,
tidak mahu ku bebankanmu,
tapi mahu berkorban untuk mu,

ya...berkorban,
berkataan yg tidak wujud,
pada orang2 laen,
tidak dapat kau ngerti pengorbanan ku,

hendak ku katakan,
apa yang telahku buat,
demi sayangku pada mu,
tetapi membuang masa saja,

tidak tahu bagaimana,
hendak ku meluahkan,
kata2 marah kepadamu,
kerna itu bukan aku,

bukan aku,
untuk menjijikmu,
untuk membencimu,
oh apakah salahku???