well juz got back from school...notin to do...all alone....so tired...so sad ah in a way....used to sleep late at nite tokin to her...chat with her untill my fingers crack...walk with her so happily and jokin around...but now, i sense a change...the way she looks at me, its different...she is like bored to look at me...does that makes sense?? i dono lah maybe its juz me missing her so much...never realy got a chance to tok to her...never realy had the chance to spend time with her...always so bz doin dis doin dat....i dono wth is wrong with me...expecting too much...must learn to relax more and be alone and independant...it aint easy being without her but i guess i juz have to try...for so long, the thought of us studyin together has been crawling all over my mind, but when i ask her if she is free the answer is always no so i am kinda embarrased to ask...from experience lah...later malu like hell...now i dono wat to say to her, cause i feel like she doesnt wanna tok to me...does that makes sense also?? ahhh!!! so stressed...u know evrytime i feel so guilty coz she is stuck with me...look at me and then u look at her....i dont deserve this...i dont deserve her...realy!!! she deserves someone who is all rounded better than this looser who is writing this stupid post...wth??so sori for sayin this but realy times have changed...i dono wat to think?? issit juz me or is she realy bored of me??? i mean stalled smses, stalled chats, stalled conversations...well maybe she is juz too bz for me....i dono?? i guess i wont ever know...