yo wussup ppl..haha sho sho tired man....go to changi then back to woodlands then back tochangi and..well u get the idea..hmm...just now after skool went jalan2 outside skool thnks nura, jannah and farra maggi for accompanying me...then went to cp with azri, syafiq, faqih and his dear hana to eat at macdonalds..thnks azri for buying for me...mua got headache ah hehe...then went home, changed and went out to changi hospital, one day without seeing my dad is hell man...tired of taking mrt but i love him so much...cannot wait for him to get home...thnks seri for keeping me company while in mrt...boring sia...sori to desturb u, haha u watchin movie rite?? haha well syaz happie birthday yer...ok skool was per usual, got social studies test which i did not study for...u see yesterday nite, i came back from hospital at around 12 and went to sleep...then i woke up at 4 am to study my social studies notes...noting was absorbed in my brain... went to skool with nabilah half asleep...like zomby sia...during the test, cannot concentrate...kept thinkin about my dad and how he was doing...oh man this is hard...the paper was ok lah bnut i anyhow do oni..watever i can remember i wrote...

well tommorow is a whole new day....goin to see my dad realy early....woohoooo, can acompany him breakfast...but then aisey man...my mom wanna go in the afternoon, but afternoon i wanna study...i guess i gotta go alone in the morning...to changi sia!! so damn far...so tired, so sick of goin alone...but never mind lah, wat to do...i just wanna say thnks to my friends who have supported me and helped me through this hard period, especially to hairi, azri, faqih, syafiq badron and others who have cared about me.....thnks for ur concern and to all the girls as well...

its been a long time since i gone out man, cannot wait for june holidays, wanna dye my hair!! want to go out!! want to watch a freakin movie!! want to hang out!! wanna go jalan2!! with my friends!! go and hang out with my family!! want to be relaxed!! no stress!!! ahhhh!!! but most of all, i just want my dad to come home...hopefully soon...

ok lah now wanna chat, tata!!

hello readers...so many things happenin now...common test...oh shit!!1 havent done my summary...k nvr mind lazy ah...oh well....today went to hospital...with my bros..syafiq and azri...thnks guys...without u guys...i got no one to acompany me... nak harapkan yg laen??? pundek ah...ok well if ur wondering, my dad is in hospital...oh man i cannot see him on tht bed man...my heart like wanna explode...very sad...imagine ur dad, ur best firend, ur adviser, on a bed in pain...at the mercy of doctors...oh man...and my mom kesian sey...must everyday go hospital alone...at changi some more...i pitty her...so alone and so tired...hmm i wanna say thnks to azri and syafiq again for acompanying me...thnks guys...u are the best and thnks to faqih, hairi and to khai, hana,nabilah, farrihin and deenah for showing the slightest concern...

ate at the hospital with azri and syafiq..ate nasi lemak...powerrite guys!!!??? i told u the nasi lemak there was power...k then went to see my dad...all sad2 and tired...pitty him...i pray he gets well...its different at home without him...its so quiet...so ...so...different...i guess i have been treating those around me like crap...maybe its becoz i need ppl and their shoulders...its so hard for me rite now...but when i look around...nvr mind...

just wanna say sori to tht special person..i guess i was wrong in treating u differently from my other friends...we are 'just' friends rite...i am so sroi for thinkin otherwise...i syiok sendiri...maybe i needed her rite now and wanted her support and needed her love and concern..but we are just friends...maybe she bz waving at others...and i am waving from behind at her...thts how i feel...so fine...i am sori...sori for askin u out...it wont happen again cos thts wat u dont want..and friends dont go out together tht often...sori for lovin u the way i do...i know its just me but i have no regrets...i love u..but if we are just friends...as long as ur happy...i hope u get success and wish u have a gd life...hgope all u said u wanted to achieve for urself u achieve it...i wish u the best of luck...

itukah dia,
kekasih yg pernah berjanji,
memberi cinta,
untukmu sepenuh hati,
ia akan menyesal sesuatu hari nanti,
kekasih mu ini ingin mu kembali,

tahukah engkau,
ia tak sepadan dgn mu,
walau beribu,
bisik janji ia merayu..........

i have been having alot of problems at the moment...school...friends...some text missing...so i turned to friends i have hung out with...friends tht i have known for a long time and havent contacted...i changed..well bad company i guess...all i wanna say is tht i am sori to all my friends for turning towards the bad...and especially to khai....sori for turning bad....i just wanna say to my friends tht i will stop ehem immediately...turn around and change..for the better...to the person ppl know i am..to the ihsan i recognise and was loved by a special girl ...i knew wat i did was stupid and now i want to make things rite...i know ppl hate me...and ppl think i am stupid...i will change myself guys...sori to my close friends...sori to my best fren...sori to my bros....sori to myself...i guess wanting my problems to go away only created bigger ones...i have learned my lesson...its a hard one...sori to nabilah for creating problems for her...and i still love u...will wait....will cherish...will respect...will study hard....will do everything...for ppl around me...but most importantly i must do it for myself....i learned tht doing things and constantly thinkin about others..doesnt always pay off...wat i do for others...will others do for me? i dont think so...and to ppl out there...jgn terase...just wanna say sori to all again...pls my friends dont leave me now...cause its da point when i need u guys the most...it will be hard quitting wat i have been addicted to...but if its for myself and those around me, i will do it.....

and this is a paragraph to nabilah... i wanna say i am sori for hurting u....i love u...i dont care wat ppl say...

i sayang u
i nak u
tunggu sampai mati pon,
tetap tunggu,
cinte tak akan mati,
takdir menentukan,
tapi akan i berusaha...

well today was ok lah...walk2 durin hl...boring ah, want to walk with my best friend, but she bz mah so nvr mind...then after skool went to hairi's...ordered pizza..haha yum2...we played games and truth or dare...watched ghost movie...so damn funny sia the movie..supposed to be scary ah...syafiq was like covering his eyes, scary wuss! ok then went to the staircase and ehem2!! haha thnks azri and faqih...hmm then went home lor...nabilah went for interview to be model like dat ah...wow congrats girl haha...but toobad must pay 288...ish3...mane nye 15 yr old can pay tht kinda money...siow ah lerr! ok lah now wanna chat, update later on..tata

wowowowowowow!!!! wat a freakin terrific day it has been!! probably one of the best days of the year!! well firstly went to school with my best friend nabilah ....then behind us were azri and faqih..they play ball kick here kick there...ended up losing the ball..haha! so funny...me and nabilah laughed like hell...sori guys...then school as per usual...got spot check siak...so my hair ah...lepeh like pancake...later tht hesley tok alot siak...got english test...cannot concentrate...see my best frend opposite of me...sniffing and sniffing her nose...kesian sey...tak boleh tahan ah...cannot see ppl sick, especially her....then after school went to play soccer with faqih, azri,hairi, syafiq and thaqif( mama lemon)...badron stopped by....play and play then ismail kicked the ball and it hit the post..but then went straight to syafiq face ...!!! i was like...ouch! thts gotta hurt....i tried to help him...then he just went home...poor guy, hope ur feeling better bro...hmm then play under void deck cause ppl wanted to use basketball court...cut my toe and i saw blood on the floor...then i saw my toe...i was like...shit!! so much blood ah...didnt even feel it..but now very the painful ah...hana then gave me plaster...thnks hana..then went to shop and bought water...wow!! gulp3!!power..

then hor we went to hairi's house...phoooyo!!! best sak..had a realy gd time...watched ghost of mae nak...faqih was screaming!!! like mad person...but then fun ah..hairi plak went under his blanket and baring sebelah me....wakakaka penakot semue!! then hairi cooked for us telor and we ate with rice and chicken...yum2!! thnks hairi!! ur the best bro!! after tht we didnt know wat to do so we made a video...haha!! tht was fun siak!! we all dressed up!! i wore tie!! haha!! and a cap!! with my uniform!! so stupid...but realy my bros are the best...haha!!if u wanna see the vid, feel free to tok to faqih...ok lah...now want to chat...tata everybody and to my best friend, i hope u get well soon dear...i love u alots!! insyallah.....someday...wooooooooo!

kuingin memilikmu,
hatiku hanya untukmu sayang,
aku kan menunggu,
masa terhenti melihat wajahmu,

kuingin mencintaimu,
cintaku hanya untukmu sayang,
dikau telah pergi,
ku harap kau akan kembali,

cintaku ini,
bagaikan bulan bintang,
kuingin mengatakan,
kumencintaimu,
dengan sejujurnya.

separuh jalan,
cerita kami berakhir,
waktu terhenti,
pabila bersamamu,

jangan terpedaya,
dengan emosi,
dgr suara hati,
bukan suara angin,

kau tahu kuinginkanmu,
terlekat menunggumu,
ada kau bahgia tanpaku...
fikirkanlah......

mes amis....football is like fencing, its a noble art...whakaka!! okk azri came over in the morning..wow fun man!! thnks bro for keepin me company...did malay proposal shit and then played soccer...tried to do joga bonito but more like yoga buah buto...hehe...play untill like wat sia...k k then went home and bathed then went out again...to fetch my best friend and send her back home...half way ah...rain elephants and giraffes man!! omg!! damn it...but i happy ah actually...(some text missing) hehe....sat under the void deck with her...stare at the rain....like love story like dat...anyways...gua tahan gua punya cold ah...bloody cold man...freezing!! naseb baek..(some text missing)..decided to run in the rain...wakau!! basah siol...tapi takpe, the main thing is dat she went home safely...then after sending her...i went back home ah....dipakse naek bas tetapi ez link bo liao so walk home ah...20 minutes walk...not so bad...then went to vista point and bought my daddy kacang...then went home ah...untill now....dono do wat siak...hehe ok lah..wanna chat with my best friend and sister..tata

today was cross country day..wooooo!! went to school with nabilah...friends mah....then went to see oc show at hall...power!! hairi like slenge...nabilah say one...haha...aniwaes...then got english....then got malay...me and faqih registered for talentime...then went to hairi's house...an then met the rest at cp and ate at macdonalds...haiya moody sia...then went to macritchie ...the bus pack siak...the rest of them went in the bus oleady...me stuck with fazilla and nab...had fever by the way...like wanna die man...seriously...so freakin cold!!! but lucky got someone to keep me warm...ehem2...then sampai at macritchie...took my number tag and started running...i was feeling so cold!!! stumbled on a couple of rocks!! there were so many ppl in front of me...i wanted a trophie!! then when i finally crossed the line... i was given a card which says 11...i couldnt believe my eyes ah... me number 11? i am gonna get a trophie!! woooooooo.......haha aniwaes after takin the prize and shit...we went back to bishan mrt...badron wanted to go eat satay at orchard...walan so fucking far...so i didnt went ah...(some text missing)..aniways...went ome with nabilah and syafiq...sori syafiq for not accompanying u ah...gua bz ah..ehem2 (some text missing) u all no need to know wat happened in mrt...syafiq shh!!! hehe...then when at cp, ate long john with syafiq...like stupid idiot sia carry trophie around cp...haha but happy ah...oh well nvr mind...k lah tired ah..wanna sleep...tata

kenangan bersamamu kasih......whakaka dah start jiwang sak aku...oh well today was anormal day...school as usual, got pft after school and ouh yar, i broke up with my girl....noting much happened lah...i understand wat happened and her reasons...oh well if tht is wat she wants then i cannot stop it...i'll wait for u even if it takes a long time...i will wait...best friends for now....but i will wait...destiny is already written....we'll see where it goes...anyway, twisted my knee when i fell during shuttle run...alhamdullilah tak patah kaki...won badron and hairi!! yes ah!! alemak tomorrow got a maths test...havent study and dont understand a thing sia...mati sia like dis...hmm...

let me see...ouh yar!!! got talenttime ah!! malay one..me and angah decided to join together2...haha should be fun...dont care win or lose, as long as get the experience...and girls lookin at me...hahaha no lah juz playin....wanna try to forget someone u love is hard ah...especially when u have made sacrifices, i mean alot of them...ok lah dont wanna tok about this....as i was saying, decided to sing aku menunggumu by peterpan...and as i was saying earlier, i will wait for her coz i love her very much and when i sing this song later on, it goes out to especially her...hopefully it wont rain when we sing...then later they blame us coz i sound realy bad but angah can realy sing man...mat rocker!! whakaka...dah ade ic seh budak tu...hmm...anyways riversidians reading dis ...pls support me and angah when we sing talenttime...hopefully can win...lalalalala...and to whom it may concern...i will wait for u...

oh my god!! the past two days have been fun3!! i mean yesterday my school close coz got oc...so almost all my members got oc sia...so bored...i decided to ring syafiq and we went out with nura and jannah...wakau! fun siak...walk2 around at city hall, then went to somerset then went to dono where lah.. i actually wanted to get somethin for my dear...then saw taka jewellery...so asked around ah...i wanted to buy for her diamond necklace but then all the big rocks were $$100+++, i aint got tht kinda money man!! so juz bought the small one lah...thts all i could afford...hehe...then went back to cp and ate long john with syafiq and nura....then went home lor...

then today, woke up bright and early to go to work...hairi smsed me in the morning and told me he couldnt come to work...i was shocked man...i dont wanna go alone..after much persuasion, he eventually came ...phew lucky man, then we went to bukit gombak stadium and worked for 4 hours...then collected our pay and went to cp...ate at macdonalds, then at 12.50 went to mrt station and waited patiently for my dear...tunggu punya tunggu punya tunggu!!! 1.20 then she came...walan feel like stupid person stand there waiting for new year...nvm...aniways...gave her the present...hope u like dear...then i went home and changed...and straight went back out again...met the gang at cp then we all went to jurong to watch movie .....once there, we found out tht the tickets cost 9.50...wtf??!!?? so expensive...aiyoh now broke oleady mah...got pay a little bit then now must spend...like shit ah...then we decided to play counterstrike at ang mo kio...lucky me memet and angah remembered the place...once there, we found out the place fully booked...citot! me angah and memet went inside to tok to the cashier...then we went out and there were 4 police officers surrounding our friends...omg...who died??? i asked myself...then firah told me tht ismail threw a bottle cap downstairs and nearly hit the police officers...i was like huh?? its just a fucking botlle cap u bloody moron...they took our ez links and called us one by one for questioning, they asked for my address and stuff, then they told me tht i am underaged to be in such a place...i was about to slap that stupid moronic face..i was about to say get a branch u fucker! but then islam mah so must sabar rite...inside the shop got so many pri schl students and i am underaged?? fuck u sir! then we just left and went to kfc, called my baby up and told her wat happened, felt like crap sia, missed her so much...haha! we all got nicknames, i am idiotic ihsan but badron one the best, 'busty' badron...whakaka, i gave him one...!then went to time zone at causeway point and play basketball...fun like crazy ppl sia...walk around like tawaf like tht...but thts not all tht happened, i was showing firah this rock song so we were walkin and sharing the mp3 player..then got one chinese dude walked rite in the middle of us...so the ear piece went out of my ear but one of it was still stuck to firah's ear however, the mp3 was still in my pocket..so i ended up hugging the dude to get my mp3 straightened out, the mak ciks all laughed at me...so paisey but wat to do sia...thnks alot firah!then after tht went home lor...walked home tht is...ok lah now want to study..tata

today was a normal day i guess...went to school with nabilah....then in school study ah...duh!!! then last period was mothertongue...then cekgu bayah said got talentime for the students....then ppl started lookin at me...wth man..aiyerr paisey sak...i juz act blurr ah...after skool faqih ngan badron cute sak..."ihsan ko join ah...aku sokong kau 100 percent!!! masok ah san talentime" i was like hmm...no way! i dont think so!! paisey siak so many ppl starin at u sing..kalau sedap takpe jugak...
aniways lucky hairi ajak me go his house..if not i go home alone again....scary sia walk alone.. then at his saw one soccer ball...so i practice a few skills ah...like shit siak...haha but i got to do the ronaldinho one!! haha in ur face guys!! haha then at three the guys got oc so i just walk home lor...3 km sak..so far but wat to do want to save money mah...walk alone like shit ah...fuck man...dont wanna walk alone again..i guess i have to....oh well...k if u are interested...check out my seven vid under 'links' tata yall

well yeah....sucky day...in the morning woke up and findin my locker keys and well...oh well its gone!! oh my god! find the whole house...no have..like crazy man..sori mom for shoutin at u...hehe...then i juz gave up lah and went to skool with my girl!!! hmm then she say wanna go home with me...i was like tercengang ah...not expected...hari aper ni dier nak jln ngan aku?? haha so i said yes...walao in skool got tsunami skid durin assembly..damn boring!! sweating like big fat pig!! then sent my girl to mrt station and went eating with the boys...me, badron and syafiq lor waited at long john for like half an hour be4 azri, hairi and ismail came to meet us..azri like rocky, swollen eye..haha! padan muka! hehe no lah...zubair hit him with balloon then become swollen..style sial...then he tok like mat drug, squinting as he talks...after that went to look at hp plans but still havent decided which hp plan to take...so confusing...then went to duplicate my lost key but the shop say cannot...bla3...so juz went home ah...then to my surprise....i saw my brother!! wooooo! wat a nice visit..long time never see him...missed him siak...then watch tv with him and lepak2..kesian ah, my bro saket...demam tinggi macam petronas tower....then created blog for him..hehe later i link ah...ok lah, now i want to chat with my buddy memet..tata guys...