hmm well...common test is here and to tell u the truth, i am fucked up rite now...i got alot of problems in my freakin head...my studies...my life at home...and the police...fuck em all....hmm...i fractured my pelvic bone durin soccer practice...fuckin hurts like crazie, it takes me 5 minutes to get up from bed and my pain killers are runnin out...fuck the pills...

started silat trainin recently and damn...tht shit hurts too...but anythin to watch my girl practicing dikir rite...u think i bother to join silat?? i dont think so...so far studies have been shit...got alot of troubles at home and in school...

got a big problem on my hands with the police...dont ask why...but shit...i need money...lots of it....
i aint askin no one to help me...i will try to solve my problems on my own....from now on, i will take responsibility for my own problems...if i couldnt take it no more, maybe i will ask for help...but untill i can do it myself, i will...

rite now, i have been sleeping in class more often...damn, in physics and bio, i have been sleeping non stop...and how i will do this common test, i dont know....i am just hopin for the best.....

and one more thing, i am missin my baby even more nowadays, i dono why.....i love her so much u know...and i hate it when shes angry at me coz she looks damn fine...just wanna say sori to her for watever i did ...

have u ever experience a kind of situation when everythin was goin so gd and then suddenly, problem after problem bombards ur life....well thts wat i am goin through...everythin was fine untill a problem came and was followed by another problem...i guess i should learn time management between my family, frens, and most of all my girl....

its hard manage ur teenagehood....with so many distractions ...sometimes in life, the best way to learn is through experience...i have learned plenty..