already six days of fasting and my patience is runnin out...alot happened today...first was the motherfuckers/motherfucker who pissed me off....called my name like a bitch from the third floor...i was on the first...i went up to ask why he called my nickname...he said he didnt...then when i asked again he said he did...when i asked again the same question, he said he called my nickname just for fun...fuck u asshole..anyways...i am not referring to any sec twos aite...i think we should just stop the fucking nonsence and just move on...from now on...i will do my part and forget aout wat happened between the sec twos and sec threes...but if u guys want to start the shit again...i will put my foot up ur asses...but now...lets have peace aite sec twos...no hard feelings between u guys and us...all of us are humans...from the same school....lets be logical, lets be friends....and me and my friends are sori for watever has happened between the sec twos and threes...no more fighting...lets end this...unless u guys wanna start all over again...i Will slap every bitch that pisses me off...and for that motherlicker who pissed me off durin recess...u got balls so use them...own up if u wanna pick a fight...dont hide behind ur friend....ur fuckin lucky ur friend was there if not i wouldnt care wat happens to me, as long as i get to whoop ur ass motherfucker...

after skool, went home to hairi's house to hang out as i had to wait for my girl who had somethin to do...we watched the new movie...GANYUT...so damn funny...it made my day at least..the only time i got to laugh and smile...thnks hairi and azri for being with me....and to my other bro faqih, dont worry aite...we are brothers, so if ur in trouble, we will be rite behind u aite...no two ways about it...

after watching the movie...hairi took out his uno cards for me and azri...we played for only 5 minutes when hairi put on another movie....kurang asam betol....that made me and azri stopped playin and watch the other movie...1/3 of the movie gone, i went home from hairi's house...just tired i guess, my girl had somethin to do so i did not send her home...

i just wanna say these last few words to that special somebody....what i do for u is from the heart, i expect notin less then respect and compassion, coz thts wat i've been giving u all this while...to the muslims...selamat berbuke...and to the non muslims...err well happy..err...happy "eatingatwhatevertimeyouwant"......if u can read tht...well peace people..tata

hey everybody...
today was my mother's birthday...felt happy for her...tht beautiful lady of mine is the best mother in the world...to me anyway....she's been there for me...takin care of me...through gd and bad times..i am lucky to have such a nice person to be there for me..i love her..haha...my brothers and sisters came to the house to celebrate...my sis even bought a big ass birthday cake...it was delicious...i even cooked with my mom...can u imagine...my sisters are at the living room watchin tv and me and my mom are in the kitchen cookin?? weird rite?? i felt pitty towards my mom...its her special day and she the one doing all the work...so i tried to help her abit...

been having problems lately....with my studies and shit....just wanna say to fana, zahirah and maisarah, sori...tht i've been acting weird lately...to her...i wanna say sori for everything...its my fault for acting like this... i shouldn't have scolded u and been so vein...never should have added to ur stress...i am sori...i guess i am justnot such a gd boyfren...dont know how to treat a girl...dont know how to understand my own girl...i am sori baby...i love u...and to faqih and seri...u guys dont bother bout tht motherfuckin tagger...just live life happily...thts the only way to go...as for me....i will try to be more understanding towards my girl....and let her have fun...not expect her to be controlled and spend time with only me...thts my mistake i guess...i miss her...

today school was as usual, woke up at 5.30 and went out of the house at 6.30 am....then walked to my girl's block in admiralty...not tht far lar ....few minutes walk oni....then we went to school together....school was boring...spent 2 periods in the library coz my malay teacher was away on a course and my pe teacher was absent...so yar...sat at library and listened to songs .....i had this painful headache in class for the past two days...dono lah...maybe coz of stress...its so painful and my friends said they could see a vein at the side of my head popping out...

hmm ....durin the last period which was a maths...the non a maths students had the chance to go back first...while the other students still had to stay in class...i grabbed my bag and went out of school alone...i felt like fuck sia...walk alone...luckily met up with jeremy and fazilla and they kept me company to the bus stop... i had to go home early to follow my mom to my sister's place in punggol....visit my sis and her family...i miss my sis and her kids... haha....

went home at around 8++ and now i just finished my hmwk...woo...so tired...talked to hairi just now on the phone and i am very glad hes ok now...for two days he has been absent from class...and the exams are just around the corner...i got worried for him...but hes ok and he will catch up...woohoo!!

tommorrow there is silat trainin again...ouch...i went to the specialist clinic yesterday to have a check up on my pelvic bone...well there is still a crack there but the doc said i will be fine..so i guess i have to be carefull durin silat...sien ah...

hai...i guess dats all tht happened today....just feel so alone sia...dono why...

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oooh lala...the past few days have been..hmm....shit!!...but i will try to let u guys know wat happened aite these past few days...got the keys to my new house in marsiling...rite in front of woodgrove...or better known for AL-AMEEN .... then looked around the dusty house...me and my parents put our heads together as to the arrangement of our furniture and stuff....

recently, i just resumed silat training for deeparaya...the trainin was tough and more demanding...i had to do splits and rolls tht i have never done before...youch man!! it hurt like shit!! i wanted my baby to be there with me but she had dikir barat trainin...haiyah...met our new instructor abg firdaus...he was fierce2 at first but then i realised he was just one of us....we joked around in the dance studio while shikin threw and slammed us all over the fuckin place...ouch man!!! i went home with not 1, not 2 but 3 bruises on my back.....astargfirullahhalazim....sakit tau!!

Me, azri, fana, zahirah, syafiq, fidah and liyana also went to the library on one of the days....had fun eatin at long john silver....hmm...never did dat much studyin, except i got my corrections done for my maths...just wanna say sori to my dear tht i didnt tell her i was goin out...damn...my mistake...sory baby.....

my results: shit, bloody hell, fucking dissappointing, idiotic.......just got back my results and guess wat?? i failed!!! wooopheee!!! some one said in my report book tht i should set my prorities straight...wat the hell is tht supposed to mean?? u think i should forget about my girl and study?? maybe i should...but i wont coz its impossible...get it bitch?? so dont tell me wat my priorities are.....how can u block the person u love most out of ur head?? fuckin crazy.....

well i guess i have to start to buck up for my end of year exams...i vow to study harder...if i do well for my exams...i can have almost watever i want...freedom....can dye my hair watever colour...can spend as much time as i want with my girl...without being a berrier to anyone's life...now i wish to concentrate on my studies and not trouble anyone.....

to my girl....i love u..i miss u....i want u....and ur mine forever....JIWANG!!!! WOHOO!!!
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these past few days has been hectic....one week of holidays has gone so fast...now its back to hell...during the holidays, i took part in the NJRC competition and represented my school...we won!! i was beating the shit out of the drums...i had fun...anyways....got my results..and its damn bad...very very bad...dont wanna tok about it...

got lotsa problems...dono where to start...i miss her but shes outta my hands....i guess there wont be a third chance for us...no more....i lost her...maybe its for the best, i dont know...just wanna experience new things....thinkin about joinin angah's band as a vocalist...can i sing?? hehe...not too sure bout tht....just wanna concentrate on my end of year exams comin up in a few weeks...and then i can have all the freedom i want...woohoo!!!

i wanna do well on my exams...be with my family and friends...no outstandin g committments...i think i also need time to myself...just relax and chill for a while...no relationship...no ties...notin...just me to figure out myself and my problems...its hard to let go of a girl u love....never will i forget her nor will i let her go from my heart...but i have let her hand go....i had to....


holidays are comin...oh man!! when?? i dono...real soon i guess...cant wait, in a few months...me sec 4?? hmm...its so quick....maybe wat my friend yara said to me was rite...time is gettin faster...we have to cherish it...make the most of it....life is short, live it...haha

i am stunned at ow fast my life has gone...i remembered the first time i put on a primary school uniform....then a secondary school uniform...walkin through the school gate with my dad to buy the school books...tht was 2 years ago...it seems like its only been 2 months ago...thts how fast life goes....

its not how many oppotunities u get, its wat u do with the oppotunities already given to you, i lost my oppotunity to make a girl happy...dont be like me....cherish ur relationships..haha i am sounding like a doctor...anyways...wanna go and study now...tata

i feel guilty and stupid...never once had i felt this way....i need to let her go for her won self...but i can't...i just love her too much...maybe its my weakness...thts what people say...but i disagree....shes been my strength all this while...how can i let her go...dont worry...i won't...i promised myself i won't...but she can let go of me....deep inside i know i won't be the same without her...i won't be half the man i am without her....but my mind is made up...i want her to leave me....its for her own gd....may she be happy...without me....

today actually got prayers rite?? but me and memet decided to go around the north and explore...muahaha...we were bored to death...met him at his block at around 12 and headed to sembawang, sun plaza...there we walked around alot and went to a shop called "sembawang" i know...so funni rite?? anyways...we then walked around somemore...lookin at everythin from shoes, soccer boots and even bras...haha ...azri2...biler ko nak insaf?? hehe

then azri dragged me to this prata shop on the first floor...phoooyoh!! the prata there nice man...except for the curry ah...bluergh....after stuffing ourselves...we then went to yishun!!!the bus ride damn long sia...me and memet slept in the bus....kesian kiter....

hohoho...nothin better to do mah...went to this game shop where azri bought a ps2 game...bla3...i was waitin and waitin for him to choose a game....he want to buy game like want to buy house like dat...sooo long!!! aiyerr...sori azri but its the truth man...

then we went back to north point and bought mcdonalds...whakaka....we got notin to do so we just went back to causeway point and then back home...zzz in the way back home...i met up with deshi, a japanese dude who speaks singlish , nurzawati and karina....haha missed u guys man...too bad u guys moved...tsk2

anyways....miss my baby...love u alot!! wanna tok to her now...tata

to this motherfucker who talked bad about my girl...i got somehtin to say to u...FUCK OFF BITCH!! kanina ciao ci bai buah pleh anjing!! eh jubo sial!! kau ckp lagi cam gitu aku letak jubo aku kat mulot kau....sialan nye puki..!!

okok chill2...love u dear...dont worry bout anythin ok?? and sori for my language guys...