its been ages since i updated my blog...well....been kind of lazy and bz too...so many things happenin...just ended my job as a waiter at downtowneast banquet....in total, i got about 1000 plus dollars...but 3/4 of it i gave to my mom to help her out abit u know....with the money tht is left, i managed to buy a new phone...its notin fancy lah but alhamdullilah....on on monday, went out with badron and azri to central(the old checkpoint) to send azri's laptop for repair and then met up with badron at yishun...we walked around northpoint and then decided to play LAN. it was fun, except i sucked at it...at least its better than fucking around at home.....

then i met my mom at home then we took a cab to my sister's place in punggol.....me and my mom wanted to camp there for a few days. its been a long time since i spent time with my sis...then yesterday nite, my brother came to my sister's p[lace and said he had a surprise for me
...then he showed me this brand new guitar amplifier and said its mine....wow!! i was shocked...he said i had to take gd care of it coz it costs around 300 bucks...peeeweeet!! and the other gadgets for the guitar cost around the same so total, he bought me 600 bucks worth of guitar gadgets....i was in ....(no words).....

it really brightened my mood coz somethin fucked my mood the other day....i felt like a freakin idiot....i know i am being loved, but i dono if i am needed....people can say they love u, but wat good does it do if they dont need u?? i know who i am and i know my place in tht person's life...i am dissapointed with wat happened...i dont blame anyone, i guess i am just not needed..oh well...fuck it...fuck this damn feeling!! i am tired of being fucked around.....enough....

you know wat reader?? i just need sometime alone...yeah...thts wat i need...or at least be around people who wants me to be around...ahh forget it....i am pissed....maybe i should just be alone for now....yeah...alone is gd...peace...hey when i am not there...i get peace and so everybody gets wat they want....friends or partner?? hmm tough choice...NOT!!! good day....i'll just fuck off now...remember this?? "SUDALAH!!"