i am confused...dazed...given up all hopes of recovering the love i have lost....only now i know the true meaning of love...its not about hugs and kisses, not about saying i love u to one another...its about what u feel when u look into her eyes...i looked into hers...saw my own reflection...made me feel secured and warm....her eyes lit up my darkness...i have succumbed to the darkness tht has loomed my world ever since she left....its so hard to tell her how i feel, scared of hurting the only girl i love, again.....a special girl is a gem in every guy's heart, i will never lose her as mine...i have made a mistake, thinkin slowly, i am afraid, i would redo tht mistake tht drove her away...destiny will settle everything, i guess her destiny doesnt have my name on it.....i hope she is happy....just as hapy as how i portray myself to be...in the inside, i am burning in sadness, confusion...i love her, i got to do the right thing...sometimes doing the right is not doing right thing....every nite i feel like shes the only person in the world...to me, she is the only one tht i care so much about...i miss her...i love everything about her....her smile, her eyes, the way she talks, walks, her voice...everything...i regret not cherishing her when i got the chance...its over now....so is my life...i have lost all directions in life....i dont know where to go...what to do....all i could think about is her happiness...love is about being together....through joy and sadness....i guess i have to face reality...shes gone, and she will probably never come back...i miss her so much, no words in the dictionary can describe how much i miss her...the pictures of me are gone, everything was back to the way it was before we got together...i am happy tht shes moving on...but deep inside, i am not...i am hurting so bad, it seems like theres no tommorrow....time passes by so slowly nite, only stretching my pain...when i'm with her, time seems to run....so fast, tht i could not catch up.....its really over....i cant believe it, i got to throw away all the dreams i had about marryin her, lovin and takin care of her....i miss her so...but shes happy now, livin her life the way she wants....all i wanna say is tht, i love u....eventhough my words cannot make u come back....i want u to know, tht there is no girl ouit there tht can make me feel this way, i swear...all i have to give is myself, it will never be good enough...u deserve better...but wat i can tell u truthfully is...no one will love u like i do, i apologise for my mistakes, but i will never apologise for loving u....