its april of 2009!!! holy shit!!! hahaha....i guess im still in 2008 kinda mood...alot has happened since the year began....alot has changed in my life...mostly for the worst...but what is a guy to do other than to face these challenges as they come.....

day by day.... stress has been pilling up....more to my financial situation....ive lost a friend i trusted for years and years....but as they say....friends come and go but family will always be there....im begining to believe that now....

work has been like fuck as usual, being treated differently than the rest, but thats normal for me i guess...being pushed around, being cursed at.....all in a day's work....im just not cool enough i guess....but all i can do is to just take a deep breath and remember why im working....to get the money and help my parents out, to pay my school fees, to pay for my books, to pay my handphone bill, to pay for my daily food and transport expenses, to give my mom some money....and to help my brother out whenever i can....

sometimes i wonder at such a young age, why should i be carriying this weight on my shoulder...but i will always realize that if i cant support myself, i wont be able to help my parents.

people are fast to say that im poor or whenever im the only one at work whose not having lunch, they will say..."why? no money ah?" ....yeah its shameful, its embarrasing, but hey, im not shameful of being poor, im shameful of working with people who think that they are everything in this world.....try supporting urself for 3 years and u'll know my situation.

im not saying that i have a harder life than others but im just saying, financially, no one can tell me that their life is harder than mine....